P/s. It's sort of another rant so skip this post if you desire. :)

Hello there beautiful people! So yes, this is the FIRST #Friday13th of 2012. And yes, there's more to come. Sadly. Haha, anyways. I have a feeling that I'm gonna blog a lot today/ tomorrow. So stay tuned. ^^ How's your day going beautiful? :) Going well, I certainly hope! If it doesn't go that well, then I'm sorry about that and cheer ups! Turn that frown upside-down into a pretty smile please, it'll get better. :) So well, let's tell you about my day. Shall we?

Well, my day started off with me woking up kinda late. KINDA, but I wasn't late for school so yeah it's all good. Then I need to get to the mrt station to take the train to school. Firstly, I need to climb four flights of stairs down to the platform. Yes, four I repeat. How wonderful, I know haha. And every flight of stairs, I tripped and almost fell 2 times, yes TWICE. That's how unlucky I was in the damn morning. Moving on, outing with [epicswag.] in the afternoon. Swaggerz forever the win. (Y) It was enjoyable, even though Zee couldn't make it in the end and all we did was sing random songs, talked about random shit and reliving our childhood days on the playgrounds near Sengkang. Idk where actually. I enjoyed that, even though it may seem boring to the rest of you out there.

It's the little things in life, the smallest of details, that matter.

Well, this #Friday13th isn't a bed of roses, no. NOT AT ALL. I feel horrible, except for when I met up with the swaggerz. ♥ Well, I came home, then I had to go out and check my eyes.

Well, remember when I said I had perfect eyesight? Well, apparently I was wrong. I just had the annual school health check-up last week and realised my eyesight is gettig worse. My left eye's 6/12, right is 6/24. Apparently, I have lazy eye. I'm going to the optician tomorrow to get my eyes properly checked and get a pair of specs if neccessary (it most likely will be.). Seems like when I didn't have to wear specs, I like to wear them. And when I really have to wear them, I don't want to. Oh, the irony. Well, that's just #1.

#2 I'm gonna be hunch if I don't take care of my back and spine properly. Which is actually like I gotta sit straight, stand straight all that blah. Which makes my back hurt like hell.

#3 Muscle aches + Sprained ankles.

#4 My computer crashed, AGAIN. Need to get it replaced/ repaired, fast. Which means wastage of money. I really don't wanna waste any more of my parents' money.

#5 Some things are better unknown.
You know when you're really happy at some moment? Then you suddenly read something that spoils your mood totally. Well, in this case. I felt like crying. Okay, so maybe there's tears when I'm typing this post but whatever. It made me felt like I wasn't good enough, like I was pathetic. And cause I felt lousy, so I decided to blog everything out. And apparently I fell asleep. I awoke and there's this sharp pain in both my shoulders and my mother came in my room to ask if I finished my tuition homework. I told the truth; I didn't. She nagged at me, saying I'm the same and all that blah. Of course, I snapped back at her, I felt terrible then. Mum, I'm sorry I told you to shut up. But, I'm not like them, I'm not like the others. I'm different, I want to score well. But, I got to take a break sometimes right? Moreover, it's just two questions. And stop bringing me down, really. I thought that was over. You can't just put the blame and whatever shit on me just because I'm the only girl okay? That's just plain favouritism. It's unfair. Trust me, it hurt me to say this but look at what you're doing. IT'S HURTING ME EVEN MORE.

#6 Questions, a bunch of What Ifs are starting to form in my head.
“ 要我节哀, 虽然他不该. 如果看不开, 我怎么活过来爱? 木乃伊的心在烧, 金子搭里闷到老. 也许我自己，太在意，被抛弃无法忍受黑暗的, 沉默孤戚. 木乃伊的心在跳, 抱着希望慢慢熬. 我鼓起, 最后的一份力撑下去, 相信这爱, 就在我醒来的新世纪. ”
- JJ Lin's 木乃伊, a very old song but who cares? It's fricken awesome. ♥ It's sort of what I'm feeling right now. Those who know how to read should know what I'm reffering to.

No one replies my texts, no one seems to truly understand me, no one to wipe those tears away when they have fallen. It feels like I'm truly, alone. Okay, seriously. I always feel better after blogging. I'm not totally alright yet, but there's a slight change in my mood at least. A wee bit. :)

Talk to someone if you're upset. Or the best thing yet; write a letter to yourself. Blog about it, rant it. I don't care how you do it but you just need to release that sadness or anger within you, not at anyone. Just you and yourself, at least you don't have to explain why you're feeling like this. You know yourself best. You're beautiful. ♥

Alrights I love you bye.

yours truly xo.
;brendahayleyfizzy xx.

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