Hey beautiful, what's up? Not in a good mood, really. I'm having a bad day. Well apparently, this person came along and unknowningly, this happened. Yes, it's a guy. A guy that I cannot get over or forget no matter how hard I try. NO, he's NOT MY EX. He's a friend, someone I likeD. Notice the past tense. I'm not even sure if I still like him now, my feelings are all messef up, screwed. He brings back memories of so many things, some just make me want to break down and cry. Why? Because it's all in the past, it's not going to happen anymore. He's not going to text me anymore, he's not going to go out or hang with me anymore. While I sit here waiting like a fvcking idiot, hoping that he'll magically come to his senses and pick up his phone and text me, call me, hang with me, whatever. Shut up, everyone has felt like this before. Don't deny it. And for those feeling it now, YOU'RE NOT ALONE. Remember that. I'm a teenage hormonal girl, you might probably see more posts like this coming up in the near future. But let me tell you, I'm a really loyal person, and I WON'T change crushes like a mad woman. My crushes usually last for a few months, the last one, before this fricken guy, lasted about 7 months or so? I'mnot sure, I want my relationships to last that long though. It'll prolly never happen til I find the right guy, which will not happen until long. Society's fucked, accept that. Oh and, I'm not a girl who goes talking about her crushes to every fucking person. There's this girl on Facebook, she's only SEC 1 like me 13. She posts her pathetic little love stories on Facebook every single day, and her stupid long captions on her fugly profile pictures. Every picture tells a different story, every status tells a stupid love story, different every day. One day she's upset, one day she's oh-so-in love, another's she's hurt. Yesterday she broke up with her boyfriend, today she stopped believing in love, tomorrow she's crushing on somebody, the next she got a new boyfriend, a totally different guy from the one's she was crushing on. I mean seriously, bitch you're just 13, are you kidding me or what. Hell, you're one crazy mad woman. Okay la whatever k, all this shit is seriously pissing me off. Stupid girl with a fucking different love story every day, stupid boy who made me fall when he didn't even plan to fucking catch me. I'm tired of everything alright. I can stand it, I'm strong, I can take more. That's it, stay strong Hayz. Yes.

Okay, now it's fixed. :) Hehe, so I finished my looooooong rant above, but seriously. Okay Hayz, STOP thinking about it. STOP thinking about what's gonna bring you down, STOP thinking about negative thoughts, STOP being unhappy. That applies to all of you out there reading as well. BE HAPPY! :) Whoever's making you upset isn't worth it! If they're worth it then you wouldn't be upset right now, you'd be happy and reading my blog thinking, heh this girl has some serious problems. Well, if you're thinking that. 1. I'm totally fine with no problems. 2. People burst out sometimes, it's usually resulted from keeping everything in. Yeap, that's me. And 3, This doesn't usually happen. Only once in a while so you're safe. Don't worry. So yeah, that guy/ girl/ thing is not worth it. So STAY HAPPY, STAY POSITIVE, Live your life. :) I think, that's all? I'm probably boring the hell outta you. So I'm gonna shut up and let y'all enjoy my zilians,





Sometimes, you gotta just SHUT UP AND LISTEN.





Heh, I'm not pretty. I'm just average what did you expect? Lol. Alrights, I have school tomorrow! Band yeah. ♥ I'm not crazy k! I'm a typical girl who loves her cca despite her band mates/ friends dislike it to the core. Oh well, this is life. Live it. :)

Keep your head up, honey. You're gorgeous, so keep that smile on your face beautiful. Keep smiling, stay happy! Stay awesome, stay beautiful, and of course stay safe. I love you guys. ♥

P/s. Thank you to DamonFizzy for being there, not literally but still. And thanks for making that " HUG ME! " video. I left it in my favs so I could hug you whenever I was feeling down. And it definitely helped. You never fail to put a smile on my face. :) I love you, Damon. As always, ♥.

Okay gotta go, tired. Goodnights and have a nice day sweetie! :)

Yours truly, xo.
;brendahayley, xx.

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