Hey guys! How are y'all? I'm currently sick, down with sore throat and slight flu and cough. :/ I'm drinking lots of water though so don't worry. :) Well, sorry for being inactive! Being sick was one reason, being lazy was another. :/ Really sorry about that, I'm just ALWAYS PROCRASTINATING. It's a very bad habit of mine. Anyways, the reason I'm posting this is because,

The next few posts I'm doing are featuring my own BESTFRIENDS!! YAY ME. There are gonna be pictures too, wheeeh. :)

Alrights, Imma stop blabbering now and start the posts. Hope you enjoy them! :D

Live in the present, forget about the past, and look forward to the future. | Learn to let go of the past. Because, what's done is done. It's in the past, it's over. You can't turn back time, don't regret. Time won't wait for you. If you fell, of course it'll hurt. Stay on the ground, let it hurt. Cry over it, let it all out. But over time, you gotta learn how to stand up again. Then walk forward, it'll be worth it honey. | Stop worrying about the future, it's not here yet. You don't know what it'll bring. So, just treasure what you have now. Because, you never know. It might be gone by tomorrow.
Yesterday was history. Tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift, that's why we call it present. :)

P/s, I was supposed to post this on my phone yesterday but the tag keep getting broken and I can't post it. So sorry this came out so late. :/
Yours truly, xo.
;brendahayley, xx.

Labels: Procrastination, Sick

CLICK HERE FOR MY TUMBLR! Don't be shy, I don't bite. :)

Hello readers! ♥ Sorry for not being inactive, as well for the previous post. I just got really UPSET. Oh well, people have their days yeah? So, don't mind me. Currently, I'm thinking of a new url to change to. This is getting boring, moreover it's too long. :/

I want something INSPIRING, NICE?, so I don't have to keep changing it. :)

So yeah, nothing much to say. Bwahahaha. Will do a post for you guys soon! WITH PICTURES. :DD Okay, I guess that's all for now. Seeyou guys sooon! ♥

Never make a promise you can't keep. Promises are meant to be broken, BUT STILL.

Yours truly, xo.
;brendahayley, xx.

Labels: Tumblr

"It's such a cold, cold world (Hello cold world). And I can't get out. So I'll just make the best, of everything I'll never have. Such a cold, cold world (Hello cold world). And it's got me down. But I'll get right back up, as long as it spins around. Hello cold world. " - Hello Cold World, Paramore.

I'm just tired, of biased parents, of fake and judgemental people, of problems, of the world, of my siblings, of everything, of life. I've put up with all that shit and crap for so long, I'm just too tired to fight back now. It seems like whatever I do, I just can't please them. I know I can't please everyone, but still? I can't even please my parents! I'm just not good enough. Is that it? I'm tired, I swear. I try my hardest to just do my best in everything I do, to make them proud. Well, they're not. Of me, at least. Just because I'm the only girl, do they have to pick on me? I'm trying, trying really hard here, for your information. I studied with all my heart and mind and soul put into my examinations and my everyday work and emerged Top Ten in my class and Top Eighteen in my whole cohord. Isn't that enough? I know it's not the best but it's my effort. I TRIED MY BEST. And then my younger brother's result came in. He's better than me of course, HE'S YOUNGER FOR GOD's SAKE!! He's learning easier stuff, and he got first in class, maths and english in the whole cohord. And whole cohord in his school is just one class. ONE FREAKING CLASS. (He goes to a new school.) Of course it's easy! What do you expect? And you keep praising him, praising him, rewarding him, buying gifts for him. And you promised me a nice meal, where is it? I don't see it. You keep buying him gifts, so where's mine? Hello, I exist too, you know. I'm not saying that I want gifts, but at least show that you care! And you say that I keep wasting your money. WHO IS THE ONE WHO DRINKS EVERY SINGLE FVCKING DAY AND WHO IS THE FVCKING PERSON THAT KEEPS BUYING MY BROTHER EXPENSIVE GIFTS? HUH?! And when I brought him out the other day, do you even know that who spent the money in like just 5 minutes? FIVE FRICKEN MINUTES, IT's HIM!! NOT ME. It's always Brenda did this, Brenda did that. Brenda spent this, Brenda keeps wasting money. And C is so smart, C got a prize. C achieved this, C achieved that. So I'm the bad kid with my older bro A and he's the good kid? I'M TIRED OF HEARING THAT SAME SHIT EVERY FVCKING DAY. IT'S ANNOYING, TOO MUCH FOR A FREAKING TYPICAL THIRTEEN-YEAR-OLD TO TAKE! So stop it, the tears, the pain, the hurt, stop it all. No one's gonna be there to wipe my tears, anyway.

Please. Just stop throwing shit at me, cold world. Please. I'm tired, really, I am.
P/S; I feel better after listening to Paramore, Hello Cold World in particular. Paramore changes lives. :) I can't take any more shit.

Wipe your tears. You're better than that, sweetie. :')

Labels: Hello Cold World, Paramore, Tired

MAINTENANCE.
Sorry for the inconvenience caused.

Yours truly, xo. ♥ ;brendahayley, xx.

Labels: Maintenance

Well hello lovely readers. Yes, I didn't upload yesterday and I feel like shit because of that. Well I'm sorry! And I'm not gonna say much, just maybe a few liners for this update BECAUSE I have band tomorrow and I have to reach school BY 8:45AM, and now is already 12:51AM am I'm still not sleeping. Too just update, wow. I really gotta stop being nice to people sometimes, it'll just backfire. Well, the day with GABRIELLE and KELLY H. was fun. The only bad thing is, it kept raining. ._. And I think that's why the rollerblade rentals weren't open. /sianface. Well what can I say? November December is the rainy season for Singapore, and the weather here, ESPECIALLY IN PASIR RIS, is really unexpected. One minute it's friggin' hot and the next, raining cats and dogs. And I've exaggerated so much that it made senior worry. Gah, stupid me! I shouldn't have typed that out!! I really hopes she read that apology tweet before band tomorrow. I don't wanna have a run-in and face-to-face talk with her. She's creepy, and she's scary. But she's really pretty though. :') UGH. Let's hope so, but whatever I say usually happens. Jinx, me. Good or bad, up to you then. Ah okay, I'm really tired and it's gonna be 1 already! Gonna sleep now, nights all. xx

OH, no quote tonight. I'm too sleepy, sorry.

Yours truly, ;brendahayley. -eyelids drift close-

Labels: Apologies, Goodbyes, Hellos

Hello readers once again! ♥ Happy 11/11/11! What are you wishes? Leave your answers in
my tagbox there (<<<<) or just simply HERE. Yes, you can ask me anything there too, questions are always welcome! :) So yes. After a whole day of searching, I've finally found people I'm spending it with my BESTFRIENDS! ♥ Gosh I'm so /excited. ^^ Hehe. First thing in the morning, off to library with RACHEL, MY BITCH. Well, I treat her as one of my best friends that's why we call each other Bitch. ^^ ♥; Well, library in the morning. Good way to refesh minds aye? :D We both love reading. And then, in the afternoon. Going out with my new clique! GABRIELLE and KELLY H. It's a pity that JIALIN can't come :/, she's doing some visiting. But, it's okay! There's always next time. :) As Gaby wanted to try out the swings, we agreed to head out to Pasir Ris Park. Weeeee, my hometown's there. Feels really great to be going back again. ^^ Andand, we're teaching Gaby how to rollerblade! Provided that we have enough money to rent skates! :$ Hopefully. :3 /wishyeyes. Hehe, these three are another of my best friends. ♥ Oh yes, and for my two best friends of SIX YEARS, close to seven now, BETTY & REGINA ♥ . They're both not free tomorrow. One's celebrating her birthday in advance and another's at school. Awww. :/ But as I said, there's always next time. ^^ Well... I'm really /excited for later!! But still in the midst of getting over the sadness of Jialin not being able to come. :/ But that's alright! She's already making a good start to my 11/11/11 by texting me now, yeah right now. ♥ Hehe. Just now I was feeling sick. Wanting to puke and a terrible headache. Luckily my mama asked me to take some Panadol, and after some dinner, I'm fine nows. :) It's getting awkward, and I don't have much to say... Haha. Gosh, I'm really hungry! AT 12:30AM IN THE MORNING?! It's saddening. These few days I keep getting hungry overnight. Well, just gotta sleep it off. So nights, sleep wells & see ya soon loves! xx

I PROMISE ALL THAT THERE'S GONNA BE AN UPDATE TOMORROW. ♥

> Don't hesitate now. Tell them you love them, go out with whoever you want, LIVE YOUR LIFE! You'll never know when there's not gonna be any tomorrows left for you. Treasure the time you have, be contented with what you have. Be thankful, grateful.

Yours truly.

Labels: 11/11/11, BESTFRIENDS♥, Formspring

Labels: 11/11/11, Formspring, ME, Paramore, Renegade, To-do-list

Hello all! As promised, I will blog again today. :D Soo, I'm eating my brunch. Mama cooked porridge for me before she left for work.


I know it's not that appealing, but it's nice. Cooked from yesterday's potato soup. Yumyumz, one of my favs. ♥ I don't really have anything to talk about though. Yeah, I know my blog is BORING. So let's update my to-do-list;

- (X) Wake up early tomorrow.
- (X) (*) Wash up & Shower !!!
- (Optional) Eat breakfast; might be eating brunch though.
- (X) Use computer. (Tumblr, Twitter?, Facebook for notification spam, Blogger!!) :D
- (X) Prepare porridge mama cooked and eat. /ohmnom. :D
- (X) Use computer again. :)
- Prepare for band.
- Go to school for band. :)
- (*) Shower!!
- Computer? :O
- (*****) BLOG ABOUT MY DAY OR WHATEVER. Must blog okie, Brenda. ^^
- Eat. /ohmnom.
- Sleep. /snorez.
- Hope I do everything on the list, A LOT THOUGH O_O. Will cancel off/tick those I have done when I update. ^^
Those marked with (X) are done so far. :)

I gotta prepare for band pretty soon, at around 12:30. Meeting KELLY Y. at Redhill later, and EISYA at school gate. :D Wooo, this friends are awesome. Not to forget these two people > JIALIN ZENN & KELLY H. :D ♥ They all have one thing in common; being there for me when I need it. Hehe, i'm just typing randomly since I have NOTHING INTERESTING (/sadface) to talk about. Awwww. :/ Oh yeah, when I come back from band, I MOST PROBABLY (><) will blog again... About how's band and stuff. :D So yeah. YAY I'M FINALLY RANK 19 ON TETRIS BATTLE ON FACEBOOK!!!! WHOOP. Without ranking down. I'm so happpppyyyyyy. :D ^^ Hehe, I'm thinking of creating formspring. And an email so that you guys can ask me questions, if you want them privately answered.

I GIVE ADVICE. So don't hesitate! :)

I'll probably share SOME of your problems on my blog, UNLESS you don't want them shared (I respect privacy.), so that others can learn from them OR someone who has the same problems as those featured on my blog are too shy to come forward.

I'm REALLY FRIENDLY & I DON'T bite. :)

So well, I think that's it? I gotta go and prepare now. Can't think of a random quote so sorry, none today. I probably don't make any sense now, so you can skip this post, if you like. :B Okay bye loves, see you later! xx
Yours truly.

Labels: Email, Formspring, To-do-list

Hello readers, ♥. Just a random update before I turn in, suddenly felt like blogging. Haven't update since my first? And I feel like blogging everyday but I'm just plain lazy. Aww. :/ Well. Tomorrow there's band. I think I'm gonna enjoy it (Insert friends from band looking at me crazily here.) though, lol. I'm really grateful to Sedrilyn! She helped me a lot today, improved my flute skills like LOADS. I mean, woah. After today, I can play the whole Furioso score already. So darn /proud of myself. :D ;does victory jig. And my sight-reading (I don't know what's the spelling of this so I'll just make do with it.) is A LOT BETTER. Like wooooooo. :) And chorale... Okay la, quite good? Lol, I'm like self-praising here?! FOREVER BHBKID98 AHAH. So yeah, I don't think she well read this but still;

A BIG THANK YOU TO MY AWESOME SENIOR, SEDRILYN! /forevergrateful. ♥

Now, moving on. I was bored to deathhhh the whole day. :/ Then Manfred texted me. I kinda enjoy his company, actually. The irony is that we used to hate each other and WERE enemies in primary school. Yep, WERE. Glad to say, we're like super close friends now. Hehe, gans now yeah! :D I realised that I'm a lot closer to the friends who WERE (Again. :P) enemies/not close to me during primary school now. Haha, I'm thankful though. We were all immature in primary school. Lol, #PrimarySchoolMemories. But we've all grown and learnt and matured, and now we're back together. :) They were there for me when I need it, and they still are. Love them to bits! ♥ Well, I just think that it's easier to trust them since we've been together for like what, 6 years? Of course we'll surely be closer to each other and trust will be found faster. I'm not saying that I can't trust secondary school friends but it's a little more difficult though. Sorry guys. :( Mrs Tay's words totally make sense though, primary school friends are more reliable, trustable than secondary school's. But still, I know a bunch of people that I can trust in secondary school. Have a 'new clique' too. Hope we keep our promises to each other and never break apart. These people are precious gems, fun, funny, friendly, caring, and a hell of a friend. I actually enjoy being around them a lot. :') Well, there are exceptions, exceptions. Of course, too many fake friends around. Can see through their facade, their pretense. I can read people easily but I'm never easily read. People usually believes the emotions on my face, but. My emotions are usually kept inside, but I'm still happy. ^^ Like I said, fake friends are worthless people. Never worth your time, saliva, hate, energy, whatever. Just don't care them, ignorance is your new best friend. :D (Paramore, woo. ♥) Lalala. And there's this awesome hotbabe > JIALIN ZENN. She treats me like her best friend even though we never met. Of course I treat her the same way. She's this awesome laddie with a really COOL PERSONALITY. She seems like a really fun person to hang around too. Meeting her soon yay, nothing to be afraid of since she's Kelly H.'s friend. Woot, I can't wait to meet her. WHOOPWHOOP. DEDICATION(S). :D Lol. ;

HAI SMEXY JIALIN, THANKS FOR BEING THERE AND TREATING ME LIKEABESTFRIEND. :D Hehe, remember Iloveyou (L) and meetupsoon k! I bring you go mac eat your CHEESEYBURGER (?) and we go GAGA and go collect INSTANTWINS. ♥

And another. :) What can I say, I'm a grateful girl. ;winkwinkz. ^^ ;

SUP KELLY H. :D YES YOU GORGEOUS BABE. You cheer up okay! These people not worth it, not worth your time/energy/hate. :) Seem so moody nowadays, hope not because of me. :/ Well anyways, THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING! And take care of your throat, must get well soon. :B Seeyousoonbabeh, Lovedieyouforever (L) ! ♥

Now I'm done with my dedications, and I feel like doing a to-do-list for tomorrow. Oh well, here you go;

- Wake up early tomorrow.
- (*) Wash up & Shower !!!
- (Optional) Eat breakfast; might be eating brunch though.
- Use computer. (Tumblr, Twitter?, Facebook for notification spam, Blogger!!) :D
- Prepare porridge mama cooked and eat. /ohmnom. :D
- Use computer again. :)
- Prepare for band.
- Go to school for band. :)
- (*) Shower!!
- Computer? :O
- (*****) BLOG ABOUT MY DAY OR WHATEVER. Must blog okie, Brenda. ^^
- Eat. /ohmnom.
- Sleep. /snorez.
- Hope I do everything on the list, A LOT THOUGH O_O. Will cancel off/tick those I have done when I update. ^^
LOL AT THE LAST FEW, SERIOUSLY HAHAH.

Lol, talk about a short post. Alrighty, turning in soon. Paramore's playing ♥, every night hehe. (L) Okey, goodnights everybody, sleep well. :)

> Be grateful for what you have. Say a simple thank you and make someone's day today. :)

Yours truly.

Labels: #PrimarySchoolMemories, A bunch of THANKYOUS. ♥, DEDICATION(S), To-do-list

Hello all! You might have realised that I totally deleted ALL my posts, and also changed my url. Reason being, I wanna start anew, fresh. But I know that some things CANNOT be totally forgotten. But it's alright, I'm willing to accept it. If you can't change things, you just have to live with it, leaving it in your past as something to learn from and MOVE ON. That's life, well as least from my point of view. :) First things first, I wanna be honest with myself, and with whoever's reading my blog.

;BASIC.
I'm Brenda, I'm THIRTEEN, female, and I live in Singapore. Currently studying. I'm friendly and nice, and I don't bite. I'm mean when I need to be, though. Let's be friends, I like making new friends. :') I'm SHY AT FIRST SIGHT, but I can get PRETTY CRAZY AND LIVELY IN A FUN WAY after you get to know me. I'll colour up your life. :D Well that's all you need to me about me.

;INTERESTS.
I love, repeat L-O-V-E, Yellowcard, Simple Plan, Paramore, Hayley Williams, Maroon 5. ♥ Hayley. She's my inspiration, idol and my hero. Because of her, I want to have GREEN CONTACTS (her eyes.), and highlight my hair RED, maybe reddish brown; won't get caught so easily. :P (Her hair.) Hehe. :B Well, I'm interested in Photography, Books, MUSIC (who isn't?!), Dance, Quotes, Fashion, FOOOOOOOD. ♥ I love cheese alot though. Ask my friends. :P Have a fetish for pianos, cheese, sandwiches, lights, clouds, nature. :)

Time to be honest.

;JUDGING.
I think it's not very nice to judge people, without knowing their stories. It's NOT FAIR to them. But I still do it, though. (I said I'm gonna be honest.) I don't like to do it, but I still do. But, I'm preventing myself from doing it. To judge people is HUMAN NATURE, we can't really stop it. No matter how close you are to someone, they'll still judge you at a point of time. They can't help it. SELF-CONTROL, yes. So yeah, control yourself. It's hard to, but everybody's learning. :)

> You know my name, not my story. You know what I've done, not what I've been through.

;SELF-HARM.
I think it's not worth it. Trust me, I've been through it, and IT HURTS. But I've stopped. :) Too late to regret now, the pain's over but the scar's gonna be there FOREVER. No need to be shocked or whatever, people around you are doing it, BUT DON'T FOLLOW IN THEIR FOOTSTEPS. It's NOT cool to self-harm. And friends who know me, please don't ask about this, not trying to be rude or anything. It's just that I don't wanna talk about it. What's done is done, we've all made mistakes in life. :) People think that by self-harming, they can release the pain, the sadness, the pressure, whatever. IT'S NOT TRUE. Self-harming does the DIRECT OPPOSITE; it makes you FEEL WORSE. That's not good, really. If you feel sad, pressurized, whatever, talk to somebody. Somebody close, like your best friend, close friend, family, teachers, counselors. If you don't wanna talk to someone close, in fear that they might judge you, you can talk to someone that you're totally not close to at all. An online friend? All in all, do not be reckless and cut, scratch, whatever, yourself. Cutting can't solve your problems you know? When you wake up, the scars are still gonna be there, they're gonna be there FOREVER. You'll never be the same again. NEVER do something you'll regret in the near future.

> There's only two types of people you can trust; the people whom you are really close to and the people whom you are not close to at all.

> Never regret things you've done, it's too late now. Life's too short for regrets anyway. :)

> Be strong. It might be stormy now, but it can't rain forever. To see the rainbow, you gotta withstand the rain. Think about your family, if you cut. They're the ones who will be suffering. Your life is WAY MORE VALUABLE than your problems, hun.

;TWO-FACED.
Yes, I'm two-faced. And I'm trying to change. Trying to accept that we can't please everybody, trying to not let others' opinions of me affect me. I'm still learning, trying to tell people what I don't like about them in the face, nicely. And not bitch behind their backs. I don't wanna do that no more. I'm gonna change for the better. When I learn, I'm gonna say things NICELY, if you don't accept it. Deal with it. I'm already doing it nicely. :)

> Haters gonna hate. ;)

;IMPERFECTION.
Yeah, I'm NOT perfect. I'm just BEAUTIFUL ME. ♥ And all of you out there are BEAUTIFUL YOU(s). ♥ I love being me, just me, imperfect. Everyone has their flaws, accept them. :) Perfection = Downright boring. (No offence, I'm just giving my HONEST opinions. C: ) Be who you are, don't hide. Nobody has the rights to stop you from being yourself, to stop you from living your life. You're NOT their dolls, robots, whatever. There's no remote controls in life. NOBODY CONTROLS ANYBODY. You are the controller of yourself. :) This is your life, live it! :)

> Nobody's perfect. But so what? Imperfection is BEAUTY. ♥ :)

;ATTITUDE.
Yes, I do have attitude. It's usually directed to the people I dislike though. I can be bipolar at times though, at a point of time I can dislike you to the core and the next day I'm super close with you. Kinda like two-faced yeah. Everybody has attitude, good or bad. It's not just a one person thing. Attitude problem. I have it, you have it, everybody. It's just depending on how you look at it. Even your nicest friends have attitude problems, you never know. They just haven't shown it yet, since they're nice. :) It's okay to show attitude to people, it kinda lets them know where you stand. Like example if you're a nice person, and people always take advantage of you. You're just tired of it, you show attitude, and they might back off a little. :) Just don't use it so much, self-control. :)

> It's not that I have an attitude problem, I just have an attitude you can't handle. :B

;FRIENDS.
The most sensitive topic, well here goes nothing. There's a lot of people in your life, that come and go. Some stay, while some leave. Well this is life, isn't it? Well, friends. I've got a lot of them. Fake friends, true friends, close friends, just friends, friends turn strangers, friends turn enemies, best friends and a whole lot more. Fake friends, they're not worth it, not worth your time, hate, energy. You've got better things to do rather than worry about these worthless people. :) Let them act all they want, say what they want, do what they want. It's their life afterall. In the end, most of them just get hated. ;) True friends, they rock. Nothing much to say about this group of friends, because this is a general group. Well, let's just hope that stay true and the world is a better place that way. :) Close friends, love 'em, treasure them before they're gone. These guys are trustable, even though we don't tell them some stuffs. But it's alrights, no matter how close we are to someone, we still keep things from them, and to ourselves only. It's normal, everybody's doing that. Don't worry. :) Just friends... Hmm. Just friends, haha. :B Friends turn strangers are the most saddening thing, even worse than friends turn enemies because enemies hate each other. Hate; at least you still exist. While all strangers do is ignore each other = NO EXISTANCE. :( Best friends, they're the BESTEST PEOPLE. ♥ Hehe. They'll be there forever, whether you need them or not. These people are really rare, and super hard to find! If they're not hard to find, they wouldn't be called best friends anymore aye.. Treasure these people most! Trust is like paper, once crumpled it can never be perfect again. NEVER. It's hard to get them back after they're gone. So yeah :') I WANT A BEST FRIEND LIKE HAYLEY THOUGH. ♥

> Fake friends are like fallen leaves, scattered everywhere. Whilst true friends are like gems, hard to find.

I love my family though. ♥ :') Hehe, I guess that's about it? Oh wells, I'm done. Thanks for reading this, I hope you won't judge me. :)
Yours truly. ♥ :)

Labels: About me., ATTITUDE., BASIC., FRIENDS., IMPERFECTION., INTERESTS., JUDGING., SELF-HARM., TWO-FACED.

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